I’m so sorry I didn’t post yesterday, I’ll tell you guys why in a bit. But here’s what I ate yesterday.
Breakfast: skinny latte (85)
Lunch: Salad (50)
Dinner: Plain cheeseburger and small fries (800???)
Snacks: fruit bowl (50), 1/3 of a cupcake (idk), 1/3 of a chocolate chip cookie (idk), a bite of chicken, and 5 pretzels.
Total: 1,200??? IDK….too many
I was doing great until a group in my school came up to us to donate money to their bake sale to help people with disabilities and I couldn’t say no. I donated $1 but apparently, I could take two baked goods. I gave the majority to my boyfriend until he said I should have some so I did. Then, my parents bought me some Portillos. I mean honestly, I’m not too worried about my food intake because It’s about the average calorie intake for normal people on a diet between 1,200-1,500 calories. However, yesterday I had an emotionally hard day which is why I didn’t post. I’m sorry guys.
I’m a perfectionist; I like to get everything perfect and therefore, I don’t take criticism too well. I had to do a paper for my comm class and needless to say, she put two comments that were not the nicest. Yes, she didn’t make comments all over my paper like other students, but I didn’t get all high grades. This literally tears me because I am a perfectionist. Everything has to be perfect for me. I’ve had a 4.0 GPA in college for the longest and I want to keep it that way. Today, I want to take the day off my political science class to do a lot of homework. I need to get my spirit up.
Also, during this class where we had to do present our papers, I heard some girl talking about me. The girl that I believe likes my boyfriend. My boyfriend and I always sit together and she never talks to me, only to him. She’s always in class making stupid jokes and my boyfriend, of course, loves her stupid blonde, white girl jokes. They honestly are not funny at all. Yesterday, was the limit, though. I heard her talking about me. She said I was “clingy” among other things. I don’t know if she knows that he’s my boyfriend but I don’t like her. She was ‘whispering’ things about me in the next table and I can’t take her anymore. Also, my boyfriends called me out during his presentation saying, “I hate when I ask my girlfriend, ‘what’s wrong?’ and she replies with, ‘nothing.’ This is the first time I felt that he doesn’t want to admit we’re dating while all the other times I felt wanted and he was happy to be with me. I feel that he denies me here.
End of rant!