I just wanted to make a quick late night post. Enjoy!
First, I want to talk about what’s been going on the last few days. Well, yesterday I had a dream about my ex (really weird dream). I don’t remember exactly everything that happened but all I know is that we were on a bus (I don’t even take the bus) and he didn’t even want to look at me and for some reason the bus driver didn’t let me get off even though, I don’t take the bus. Yes, it was very odd but it sent me into an emotional frenzy. I started thinking about my ex and all the good times we had and how much I miss him. I hadn’t thought about my ex in the last couple of weeks, but this dream was too much. It sent me into a cookie binge session which was not pretty because once again, I could not purge. I don’t know why but I couldn’t. Most of my binges occur out of an emotional state and this was a very emotional state. I laid in my bed crying into my pillow last night. Why is it that even after over a month I am still missing my ex? I am so unbelievable. I hate myself for missing him and I hate myself for bingeing.
The one thing that cheered me up this morning was reading Celia’s blog post, it made me feel appreciated and liked 🙂 I realize that this is my home, you guys are my friends. Honestly, you guys check up on me way more than my real “friends.” I have no one but my pillow to cry to in person but I know that I can come here and you guys will make me feel better. I am so grateful for this community, for each of my followers, I want to thank each and one of you because you guys are beyond incredible. I never imagined that anyone especially strangers would even bother to read one of my posts but you guys do. You guys have literally helped me through a lot and I can’t thank you all enough. All I can do is be here for you 🙂
So, today I went to the mall and I bought some undies and leggings.
I got two things that every girl NEEDS:
- The classic black thong! – my black thong was, unfortunately, ruined by mother nature. Thanks, uterus!
2. Starbucks!!! Starbucks is love. Starbucks is life. My typical order- grande skinny vanilla latte.
I’m feeling a lot better and I know I won’t binge tomorrow 🙂
Liz *sending all my love to anyone and everyone that needs it*