Hey loves,
I feel so emotional right now. I hate feeling like this. I hate not being able to talk to someone and have them listen and care. I wish I had someone to talk to.
I had a pretty rough week, and this one will probably be just as rough. I had and have so much homework, family issues, and emotional problems.
I was doing so fine but it seems that every time I end up taking a step forward, I end up taking two steps back. I hate myself for doing this.
Just a couple weeks ago, I was doing so fine. Yesterday, and this entire past week, I’ve just been so horrible. So stressed. So tired of life. I wish I was someone else, somewhere else, living a completely different life.
I hate myself for ruining my life. I use to be so happy and bubbly. Now, I’ve turned into a monster. I’m always depressed and crying or angry and rude. There is no in-between. I hate myself for it.
I hate that I’m a woman so I have to be the bigger person. I have to be the one that moves on. I have to be the one to suck it. I have to be the one that pretends to be okay. Well, I am so fucking tired of pretending.
I am NOT okay. I am hurting so much. I hate myself.
I hate that I can’t be happy anymore. At least not genuinely happy. I can only pretend to be happy.
I don’t even try anymore. I just don’t care anymore.
Yeah, I said it: I am not okay and I’m tired of pretending to be okay.
Love,
Liz.
It’s ok to not be ok. Just as it will be ok when you eventually feel differently.
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I tried to feel better but I haven’t succeeded at all.
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Yeah I don’t know what the formula is. Maybe just time and ice cream😊
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Haha thanks!!! I’ll try that out!! 😃
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Take care and don’t give up. I know from experience that that is easier said than done. Have a good day Liz.
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Thanks for all the advice. I’m definitely not going to give up. Have a great day as well!
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