Who am I?

Hey loves,

I’m finally getting a chance to catch up with you guys again, YAY!

Firstly, I just wanted to give a quick update on what’s going on in my life.

Well, on Monday my ex decided to send me a Twitter DM with a real, sincere apology. He said that he wasn’t man enough to say this to my face and admitted to being a jerk to me. He said that he did not deserve forgiveness for what he did to me. He also said how much he misses me. How I was the only one that cared about him for the last two years and how he lost the best thing he had in his life. I feel bad for him, but he realized things too late. This time, he listened to what I had to say. I told him everything I needed to without him blocking me. I felt a great sense of relief. I finally got closure but somehow I didn’t even flinch. I thought this would me make happy but I felt nothing. I can finally say that I moved on even without the closure. It took me a little over four months to move on, but I did. It took him four months to finally realize that he missed out, too bad for him. It’s too late.

Aside from that, I’ve been really busy with school. This week I had a test, a presentation, reading posts, a project, and some other things. I have a lot of things coming up this week as well. I guess I am one busy college student. I have registration for next semester this upcoming week and I’m unsure of what classes to take. I don’t know what I want to do with my major or anything. I’m a junior and I’m still pretty damn lost. I need to figure things out real quick.

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With everything that has been going on in life, something that keeps popping up is the question of who am I? I don’t know. I don’t know who I am. I don’t have an identity. I keep pondering on this question because it’s really important this late in the game.

To answer this, I think “well, what makes me, me?” Let’s see: I am a young Latina attending college. That’s it.

What do I like? Hmmm…. I like coffee, Starbucks, Diet Coke, blogging, Taylor Swift, Shark Tank, Skins, Titanic, The ShShiningDisney movies, Malcolm in the Middle, Scarface, movies that make me cry, and animals.

That’s about it. I guess I don’t know who I am. I know what I am and I some of the things I like, but I don’t know who I am.

I’m extremely shy. I am a complete weirdo. I’m afraid of the dark. I hate the fact that I have to be an adult. I have no social life, whatsoever. I’ve never been to a concert, nor do I have an interest in going. I believe(d) in true love. I like listening to people and hearing their problems. I’m very emotional and get depressed or anxious very easily. I still sleep with a nightlight. I’m that one person you know that certain weird things can ONLY happen to them. I talk way too much about my feelings and other messed up stuff, only if I know you well enough. I have extremely low self-esteem. I rely on others to love me for me because I don’t love myself. I complain about everything, even about me complaining too much.

I guess these things describe my personality, but do they answer the question of who am I? I don’t know. I haven’t found my true self yet. I know there are lots of tests out there that tell you which character of a movie you are, which celebrity you are, what your personality is like, what your Facebook says about you, etc. but do these things honestly answer the real you?

So, to all my followers: Who are you? Who are you truly?

Goodnight.

Love,

Liz