Today, I just wanted to share a brief update on my life right now. Enjoy!
Recently, I’ve been feeling very depressed again. I’ve been sleeping all day when I’m not at work, I haven’t been eating much at all, and I’ve just been very down. The last time I felt this way was almost a year ago when I had my first major breakup. Now, I don’t feel that horrible but I feel something like that right now. I don’t want to share the reasons why I feel like so terrible because it’s a sensitive subject. Let’s just say that I’m taking this incident like a breakup.
I don’t want to share the specific reasons why I feel like so terrible because it’s a sensitive subject. Let’s just say that I’m taking this incident like a breakup. I fell in love with someone that can never love me back. I didn’t mean for this to happen but it did. And, now I feel so terrible.
I hate feeling this. I don’t feel motivated to do anything. I feel that my life is simply crap. I’ve had no motivations to look for internships even though I know that this is my last chance. I’ve been extra sensitive at work too. Two weeks ago, I started crying over little things. I haven’t even wanted my hours which I always want. I haven’t even wanted to write a post which I always love to do.
I just wish this can pass soon. I know it will just like my first real breakup, but I can’t help but worry how long it will take. It took months to finally get over my ex. I hate that every time I fall in love with someone, they end up hurting. I seem to be in a continuous pattern of falling for guys that I just can’t be with which only leave me heartbroken. I hate this.
Hopefully, by writing this I feel a little better.